I am certainly not alone in my concern about the state of the world these days. My biggest problem is that I tend to internalize things, keep them inside. So of been told, I typically do not show it on my face when I am mega stressed out. I guess that means that I am good at keeping things inside.

The past few months have been difficult, again I am not alone. The situations of others, friends, family, and myself have all weighed heavily on me, eating at me from the inside out.

In the process I have kept to myself much more than normal. I haven’t kept up my end of the deal in relationships, with the people who are very dear to me, people that I care very much for. It’s kind of weird because I realize that and it causes me to just internalize things that much more. That makes me feel awful.

I need to break out of this funk. I guess its kind of like worry turns to depression, and eventually to anger. Perhaps not the bad sort of anger, but the anger that but a cause to action.

Very recently things went down and I came away feeling as though I had been sucker punched. That seemed to have hastened my forward motion into the anger phase. I still haven’t quite left all that depression behind though, and I really need to. Because that feeling is paralyzing, it stands in the way.

There are so many cool things in life, but sheesh it can sure suck some times. I have some serious challenges, no question, but I am starting to wrap my brain around getting back to the person I like to be, I think it will be a tough ride but I am going to give it my best shot.